Losing a loved one sucks. It’s never easy to come to terms with the thought of losing a grandparent or someone close to you. Even when the person’s quality of life isn’t what you want for them or what they would want for themselves. The thought of them not being there isn’t easy. You can never brace yourself for the moment when it’s time for them to move on, it’s always difficult.
My Maw Maw Ruth was a beautiful woman whom I have lots of fond memories of. She taught me about makeup, etiquette, loved bird watching and could tell you all the different types of birds in her beautifully landscaped yard.
I remember waking up at my grandparents house and having “coffee milk”(cup of milk and sugar with a splash of coffee) and feeling so grown up. After breakfast my MawMaw would take me to the mall and we would visit the Merle Norman store where she would buy me some type of lip gloss or blush or to her favorite local frame shop to look at household items. Once we got back from errands it was lunch time which usually meant ham sandwiches.
She LOVED ham and always had sliced deli ham with all the best sandwich pairings. Nothing fancy just Pepperidge Farm bread, Duke’s mayo, mustard(regular and dijon), lettuce, tomato, cheese(a variety), pickles, and chips. Sandwiches always tasted better during those lunches because everyone enjoyed being together. On Thursday before we laid her to rest we had lunch at a deli and I ordered a ham sandwich in her honor.
I have to admit that as a kid I started really disliking ham since I knew we were going to have it every time we visited. It was so predictable and became a joke, but as an adult it’s a memory I have of my childhood. The predictable moments are sometimes the best memories and I find comfort in looking back.
My emotions have been up and down over the past few days, but I have come to a place of peace and acceptance knowing she and my granddaddy are together again.
This past weekend was very bittersweet in how we got to see a lot of family and close friends, but sad that it was because of the circumstances. It was very heartwarming seeing some of her friends paying their respects and them telling me about how she loved to play bridge and how much she loved being in the DAR . It was nice to hear from people who admired her and know that she lived a very fulfilled life.
I will miss her dearly.