Instead of the normal beauty tips or tricks I thought I’d give a post on a topic everyone can benefit from, especially this time of year.
The other day Travis and I were talking about vacation after I’m done with school and I was so excited about all the different places we talked about. A spa in Arizona, a beach trip somewhere, etc. All the ideas we were thinking I had set my mind on hikes we’d take, lounging by the pool, FOOD, etc. All of this crossed my mind and I never thought about one major thing…BATHING SUIT.
I immediately freaked out because I’ve not worn a bathing suit since our honeymoon in October of 2010. This is no exaggeration. I haven’t even been photographed in a bathing suit since 2008. I just hate it.
Even worse, I’ve not purchased a new bathing suit since probably 2006. I wish I was kidding, but I’m serious. I avoid it like the plague, it’s bad.
When I started looking for a new suit, that I still haven’t purchased, I had a thought that my body isn’t the problem. I don’t have any different problem areas than anyone else, I just need to work on my confidence. How I feel on the inside will show on the outside and a bathing suit really has nothing to do with it.
I, like most, struggle with this time of year picking up on all my imperfections and not giving myself credit for the accomplishments I’ve made physically. In the above picture I never worked out. I maybe rode the elliptical while reading a magazine but that was it.
Since then I’ve run 2 half marathons, become much stronger and have started to see definition in my arms, enhanced my yoga skills, and become stronger all around. My weight has stayed in the same five lb range for the past few years, but I know that a lot of it has to do with my muscle to fat ratio. Of course, this is way easier said when sitting in front of a computer in my sweats than when looking in the mirror in less than 2 yards of fabric, but it’s true.
I don’t want to discount all that I have done and focus on what I haven’t because there will never be a time when I’m happy. It’s never about a bathing suit. It’s how I feel about myself all the time. I can’t be the girl who wears a sarong all day at the pool and won’t take it off until I’m laying down on the chair so all my lumps and bumps are smoothed out by gravity. I need to own up to the fact that I will never be airbrushed and that’s ok.
I will be more confident!!! And I hope this bathing suit year you will too!